Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Tomorrow's The Big Day

My first appointment's tomorrow. I'm guessing I'm around 9 weeks, so if there's no heartbeat, there's a problem. The good thing is, we'll get some kind of clarification either way, and my doubts will be laid to rest.

Symptoms finally showed up around two weeks ago. That's when the wall of TIRED hit. And it hasn't left yet. Every day, I am just so exhausted. The house is a mess and I'm too tired to care or to do anything about it. I just look the other way. I can't wait until the tired is over so I can give back to my kids again. I feel so bad for them, with a Mama who does as little to make it through the day as possible. They deserve better.

And I've begun to have food issues. Not the throwing up kind - the "I'm over-full from eating one teaspoon of dinner - Oh no, wait, now I'm STARVING like I've never eaten in my life and must eat NOOOOW!" The same kind of food issues I have every pregnancy.

So while the tired and the food issues (and the CONSTANT trips to the bathroom, especially during the night) are inconvenient, I'm reassured to have some signs that I am indeed pregnant. Looking forward to tomorrow!


Brent and Abigail said...

praying for you and can't wait to hear what the doctor says! And as much as its hard I'm glad you're feeling sick and pregnant. With Joel I never thought it would end but Colin doesnt remember any of my weeks on the couch because i had no energy to move.

Tante Ilse said...

so today's the day to see the doctor. i'm praying for you sweet leah! geez, i have the same symptoms you have...i'm always tired and i've had food issues for years - i'm ALWAYS hungry and constantly grazing! love you, tante ilse :)